1.《Pornography》：抑郁与痛苦的“腐化”之路

《Pornography》是The Cure最具代表性的黑暗专辑之一，标志着乐队情感表达的巅峰与极限。1982年发布的这张专辑充满了深沉的忧郁、孤独感和对生命的绝望。其音乐风格以沉重、阴郁、低沉为特点，歌词充满了对人性的质疑、对存在的痛苦以及对社会的疏离感。Robert Smith的嗓音在这张专辑中表现出一种极度的压抑与绝望，与音乐的音效配合无缝衔接，共同营造了一种几乎无法承受的情感重量。

在《Pornography》中，情感的“腐化”表现得尤为突出。歌曲如《One Hundred Years》展现了对生命无望的情绪，歌词“It's been one hundred years, and still I'm crying”传达了无尽的苦痛与内心的纠结。这种情感的“腐化”通过音乐的结构、音效的设计和歌唱方式得以完全体现。吉他和合成器的重复性音效，以及密集的打击乐，使得整张专辑的氛围充满了压迫感和黑暗色彩。

此外，专辑中几乎没有明确的旋律，许多歌曲呈现出的是一种渐进式的情感变化，音效和节奏的变化为歌曲赋予了更多的不确定性与不安感。这种音乐语言的“腐化”不仅仅是情感上的剖析，也是一种艺术上的追求：它挑战了传统摇滚音乐的结构，打破了旋律与节奏的传统框架，使得情感得以更为深刻和多维的表现。

2.情感的裂变与“重生”：从《Disintegration》到《Wish》

随着时间的推移，The Cure的情感表达发生了显著的变化。《Disintegration》是The Cure的另一张关键专辑，虽然它的情感依旧复杂且阴郁，但其中不乏对爱的探索和情感的反思。特别是专辑中的《Lovesong》与《Pictures of You》，这些歌曲传达出了一种情感上的成熟和对爱的向往，这与《Pornography》的绝望感形成了鲜明的对比。

《Disintegration》展现了乐队音乐上的“重生”，情感不再是单纯的压抑与痛苦，更多的是对内心复杂情感的多角度表达。尤其在《Lovesong》一曲中，虽然其旋律简洁明快，但其情感却显得深刻和充满了渴望，歌曲中的音效不仅强调了情感的深度，也让旋律变得更加丰富。《Pictures of You》则通过清晰的旋律线条和层次分明的音效设计，讲述了一段爱情的回忆与怀旧，使得情感的表达变得更加生动与真切。

The Cure乐队的音乐美学风格特征、历史继承与创新 https://music.douban.com/review/16472771

1

The first track off of 1982’s Pornography, The Cure open up their gothic “piece de resistance” with an innovative wildly flanging guitar, and African polyrhythmics. Smith’s opening words: “It doesn’t matter if we all die” are a sampling of the bleak existentialism and in many cases pessimism that will dot the album. The song is about the drollness of post industrial life and at some points a parallel to the book 1984 by George Orwell in allusions to police patrolling streets under the night and shooting rebels down.

While Smith has never come out and said that the song (or its title) were inspired by The ‘Hundred Years War’, it should be noted that The Hundred Years War was a long-running bloody conflict between England and France about which family line should have the French throne. It is possible that the song’s metaphors of personal suffering are being compared to the Hundred Years War (or simply its title).

“One Hundred Years” showed up on the 10” single and double 7” gatefold single of “The Hanging Garden” (often labeled as A Single). However, a UK promotional 7” was released that put “One Hundred Years” on the A-side and “The Hanging Garden” as its B-side.

2

The second track on the Cure’s gothic milestone, Pornography, is centrally about the “short term effect” of drug-taking, something the band had been doing a lot of during the production of the album (and its predecessor, Faith), although, on another level, it deals with the same themes of the shortness and futility of life that are touched on on a number of Pornography’s other tracks.

Sound-wise, it continues in the same vein as “One Hundred Years”, sustaining the already-intense atmosphere with a quick, driving drum pattern and screaming, backwards guitar noises. The major triad that opens the track also strikes an unsettling dissonance with the dark, whirring backing.

3

“The Hanging Garden” was the sole commercial single release from The Cure’s album Pornography. Two releases of it were under the title A Single. It reached #34 in the UK, becoming their second-highest charting single there at the time – until the following year when “The Walk” broke the top 20.

Cure frontman Robert Smith said in a fanzine, “The Hanging Garden is something like about the purity and hate of animals fucking.” While it’s not very specific, that’s all that’s really known about the song’s meaning. However, the title may be a reference to The Hanging Gardens in Mumbai, India, which is well known for its view of the Arabian Sea and its hedges, which are carved in the shapes of animals.

4

After stating that “The Hanging Garden” was written about “the purity and hate of animals fucking”, he added “And I think “Siamese Twins” is about the hate and purity of people fucking too…”

Some fans believe the song is a metaphorical description of a quite psychologically traumatic first sexual intercourse, losing virginity to a prostitute, as seen through the prism of narrator’s twisted, morbid, traumatized imagination in a style somewhat resembling stream of consciousness, involving a series of striking images, torn out of time just like our memories are. He painfully recalls every single detail of the past night over and over, exaggerating it to the point where narrative becomes nightmarish and disturbing. The name of the song is a metaphor for a heterosexual intercourse, where a man and a woman become intertwined as if they were a single creature, just as Siamese Twins are, and, in case of the narrator, start hating each other, just as the aforementioned Siamese Twins might.

“Siamese Twins” is one of the instrumentally lighter tracks on the album, with a sonic emptiness akin to what is heard on Seventeen Seconds and Faith, but Smith’s tortured vocals and Lol Tolhurst’s pounding drum cycle help sustain its dramatic intensity.

5

In a fanzine, Robert Smith shared that “The Figurehead” was inspired by “a grotesque skull sculpture I discovered in the disused asylum we used in the “Charlotte Sometimes” video. I took it home to talk to – to confess to – and this song is about guilt.”

6

“A Strange Day”, a song about, according to Robert Smith, “how I would feel if it would only be the end of the world”, is backed by the same driving force that appeared on “A Short Term Effect”, only this time it’s slightly slower. The drums and prominent bassline are also reminiscent of the band’s 1981 single, “Charlotte Sometimes”.

7

Introduced by an ominous cello line (played by Robert Smith himself), crashing, plodding drums soon pull “Cold” into a synth-laden abyss of sound. The track is slow and formidable, with lyrics dealing with the effect of drugs in Pornography’s uniquely ambiguous manner.

8

The Cure’s landmark gothic rock album, Pornography, closes with perhaps the group’s most harrowing and difficult track to date. It opens with a cacophony of voices whose words are near-impossible to make out, creating a claustrophobic atmosphere that mirrors Robert Smith’s drug-induced schizophrenia. Lol Tolhurst’s pounding toms gradually fade in, followed by a menacing organ and bass sound. Smith’s vocals and dissonant guitar bursts then add fuel to the fire of this hellish concoction.

The lyrical content is akin to that of the album’s opening track, “One Hundred Years”, a series of images which don’t really connect or flow in any way, painting a picture of violent and chaotic destruction. The precise meaning of the lyrics is frequently debated amongst Cure fans, as most of Pornography was written streams of consciousness while Smith was high or drunk, making the words extremely difficult to interpret.

Genius Annotation https://genius.com/The-cure-pornography-lyrics

https://www.last.fm/music/The+Cure/_/Pornography/+wiki

Faith: https://violaine.xyz/s/trWiEXbdDwjtmDW Pornography: https://violaine.xyz/s/45ZyTZmfcHTKiWD Disintegration: https://violaine.xyz/s/FYnLbxJ26EYCGtz

Just like the ocean, always in love with the moon

11/29/93

Bloom inside, my beautiful flower If you feel your blood moving under your skin Then let it kiss every inch of you Let the friction of its rushing through your riverbed Arise like applause in your breast And sparkle like kisses upon your belly Close your eyes and fly Stretch your legs and sing Because inside you the sea is swelling in love with the moon No such things as self defense or bondage Or regret from the past, the ocean only lives and creates and flows But always in love with the moon

Speak out to me My beautiful sparrow In the morning you fly over a city Of lunatics walking in pain and waiting for betrayal All you know is the wind The rhythm of the fragrance of the world Only, you can sing me awake Sing it to me with the smell of your back Sing it to me with the heat of your lips Kiss me where you want and the song is all I can hear Inside you the sea is swelling over Spilling over my head And I stay submerged Waiting for your rose to open to me And your song to sink into my skin Jeff Buckley – His Own Voice (P.142)

Just like affection rushing in your riverbed
Arise like applause in my head

Just like the ocean, always in love with the moon
It's overflowing now, inside you
We fly right over the minds of so many in pain
We are the smile of light that brings the rain

(Opened Once)

Flower

Bloom inside, my beautiful flower

Jan 13, 1995 – Then Samantha saw Jeff, in his winter coat, with a flower in his lapel ... He wanted to see Liz Fraser in Twickenham.

Rose

Waiting for your rose to open to me

• love and a thousandfold rose for Buckley (Milk & Kisses liner note)

Willow

Speak out to me My beautiful sparrow

Close your eyes and fly / Stretch your legs and sing

willow sparrow (=Spanish sparrow): often seen in flocks.

• “when will you weep for me, sweet willow” (All Flowers In Time)
• “But tonight you're on my mind so... sweet willow” (Lover, You Should've Come Over from Live at Chicago 1995) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLHcHWDvgfQ&t=129s
• “Sing? I'd love to” (Flock of Soul)

Cockatoo Twins poster from Bojack Horseman

Morning

In the morning...sing me awake

• “Morning theft / Unpretender left / Ungrateful” (Morning Theft)
• “meet the sunrise through the window shining” (Flock of Soul)

Light

• He had been to England for a week over the new year, to visit Elizabeth Fraser, the singer with Cocteau Twins, whose voice, he told me, stopped him in his tracks. “It sounds like light,” he said.
• “Oooh, fall in light, fall in light, fall in light” (New Year's Prayer)
• “Cover me in sublime light” (Flock of Soul)

There ain't a star born that brightens More than you, you always should have known, I'll illuminate your question, Long time ago I'd died and gone (Thousand Fold)

Twinlights: [Geography] Navesink Lighthouse Station... the reflection in the night sky could be seen from seventy miles at sea.

• “Not long before the wisps of starlight” (Flock of Soul)
• “We come together / Making chance in the starlight” (Morning Theft)
• “And in the half-light where we both stand / This is the half-light, you see me as I am” (Opened Once)

Flood

Inside you the sea is swelling over Spilling over my head And I stay submerged

• “Your eyes and body brighten / Silent waters, deep”, “A heart that beats as / Both siphon and reservoir” (Morning Theft)
• Come feel the deep / It's love in a flood (Flock of Soul)
• The lips, the heart / Feel the flooding / Feel the fire / The heart, the soul / Illuminated, illuminated (Treasure Hiding)

fanart

https://www.neka.cc/composer/12705

Album: The Moon and the Melodies

🌻 “All Flowers” Terminology /budd/sweet-willow 🌻 “All Flowers” Timeline /budd/all-flowers-in-time 🌻 “All Flowers” Diary: /budd/sea-in-love-with-moon 🌻 “All Flowers” Diary: /sin-e/morning-theft

Avant-garde singer and actress Rebecca Moore was Jeff's lover during the early 90s, and the inspiration for much of Grace. Her album Home Wreckordings includes the wistful Live in Blue Sparks: “all kinds miss Jeff....I'm not afraid, I walk with my little horned kids”. Stilletto'd Young Stars explores the pathos of love lost and the loneliness of art. “If the song was meant to be, it'll come again some day – like you.” https://web.archive.org/web/20230419220847/https://mojopin.org/pages/tribute_songs.php

Home Wreckordings 1997–1999 (2000), a layered dreamscape that was created in the two years following Buckley's untimely death in 1997. Wikipedia – Rebecca Moore

CD: https://violaine.xyz/s/tPwHJetZFXKfFWZ

• Genre: Electronic, Jazz, Rock, Funk / Soul, Non-Music, Pop, Classical, Folk, World, & Country, Stage & Screen
• Style: Art Rock, Avantgarde

From ebay listing (Left: Live in Blue Sparks)

🎵 Stiletto'd Young Stars

“He writes or so, it seems the poet relates elation beyond his dreams. Now you're gone...where songs are born, sent back to us each nite in the bellys of sweet fireflies.”

“Trumpets of your soul will sound even though you're in the ground.”

“Young life crosses young love / The knife wanders through me so slow, It cuts between us as we grow” (🎵 Sky Blue Skin)

🎵 Thaw

“There's no heaven I know but this one I've made inside my head.”

“Father stand right next to him my diamond eddie diamond jim. I will meet you in those fields again...”

🎵 Cartoonlust

“I need a shape I need to make this wrong decision Hey hello before I go you know I really missed you... Todays the day I try to be Mr Dead and Mrs Free”

http://web.archive.org/web/20030713214606/http://bluviolin.com/homewreckordings.html

🎵 Live In Blue Sparks

“all kinds miss Jeff....I'm not afraid, I walk with my little horned kids”

🎵 This/Past

“But I see the same thing — over and over and over. It's all in my head and so I — How can you know what you sacrificed...let it go x 4”

🎵 Somehow

“All I can see, you've shown to me and finally tells me something else. You had an ocean fill of stories”

🎵 Joy Will Come

“I go melting down standton street – to the suitcase hall of fame; Hey old flame – I still hear your name everyday, you're still outside that place you love to hide”

Moore's apartment, at the intersection of Stanton and Allen Streets, had all the trademarks of a typical downtown home https://www.tumblr.com/sweetdreamsjeff/727196079386509312

“I just had a talk with my Rebecca, the real one. That I know, not the one I left in pieces on 86 Stanton.”

🎵 Sister Marianne

“may music always be your fuel and may you shine the brightest jewel”

You are so full of yourself but I love you for your drag queen sort of ways...At his funeral cracking jokes into your cigarette ashes flew

where most control their whole idea of a scene and then call it a day

so all together jump and slide with the iridescent suicide

pretty bored days you better learn to fly on your own

“There's room for both of us to fly” / 🎵Gunshot Glitter

as a dolphin leaning on a pinball machine he's sweating out your gasoline reciting verses of our troubled days

Reviews

On this Moore retrospective we hear her fascinating, intimate experiments with strings and electronics backing her will-o-the-wisp voice, a disembodied, floating expresser in rhythm section-less arrangements. Recorded at home over a two-year period, this album is the personal level of material that can only arise from one's domicile and the simplified beauty of creativity on fire in a bare-bones studio. Moore plays all the instruments herself with a few guest musicians on two tracks, one of them Earth, Wind & Fire's “Fantasy.” The other track she calls for help on is another rendition; a convincing, nightmarish apotheosis of “Telegram Sam.” Recalling Björk's Homogenic, Home Wreckordings is a subtle and adventurous work of rare beauty. Allmusic – Home Wreckordings Review by Tom Schulte

https://nestor.minsk.by/mg/2001/17/mg11721.html

“Hey Rebecca...next time (you & I here). Paris sucks without you.”

Jeff Buckley Walking the Streets of Paris 1994 https://youtu.be/6df_wOqJfNA?t=441

https://www.tumblr.com/sweetdreamsjeff/727196079386509312/in-the-small-workspace-room-they-painted-a-poem

https://archive.org/details/cd_live-at-sin_jeff-buckley

Ironically, the singer on one of the This Mortal Coil covers, “Song to the Siren,” was none other than the Cocteau Twins’ Elizabeth Fraser, with whom Jeff would later have a romantic relationship.

• “I only met Jeff a few times. He was introduced to us when he was just a young teenager having come to one of our shows at the Zenith in Paris. We were all thrilled to meet him. It was especially poignant I am sure for Elizabeth and Robin who had recorded that beautifully sparse and atmospheric version of his father’s ‘Song to the Siren’ for This Mortal Coil a few years prior” — Simon Raymonde

1990

• He was, by then, deep into British pop—not surprisingly, the sulkiest and most sensitive of it, bands like the Cocteau Twins, the Smiths, and the Cure.
• By 1990, he had already been in touch with and spent time with Tim’s widow, Judy, and her twenty-seven-year-old son, Taylor, whom Tim had adopted. When Judy Buckley gave him tickets to a concert by the Cocteau Twins, Jeff told a friend he kissed Judy on the mouth—partly, he said, out of appreciation, and partly to feel exactly what Tim had seen in this woman.

1991

• They’d been introduced when Cocteau Twins toured the US in 1991.

1992

August

What do you love about “Twelfth of Never”?

• I cover the Nina Simone version. It’s just the way she does it. I can’t get into Elvis’s version; it doesn’t capture my imagination, though he had a beautiful voice. Every time I hear “Can’t Help Falling In Love,” I cry. I can’t separate Charles Manson from The Beatles or the Clam Bake movie from Elvis, though. But I love all music. I’m the Cocteau Twins’ biggest fan. They allow their deepest eccentricities to be the music itself, and not just something they want to project. Liz Fraser is one of the only originals. They’re just regular people too. I got to meet her once. She was very shy, which puts a weird curve on that music as well. Imagine that sound coming out of her mouth when she’s in the kitchen scrambling eggs. I lose my mind when I’m washing the dishes.

(This is that first press interview, conducted on August 12)

1993

May

• He began to fill it with stacks of books and compact discs, the latter running the taste gamut from classic rock (the Allman Brothers, the Doors, Cat Stevens) to kitsch (Sammy Davis Jr., The Mighty Wurlitzer) to alternative rock (Cocteau Twins, Guided by Voices, Sebadoh) to nearly fifty qawwali discs.

Nov

• “I’d love to sing with Jeff Buckley—Tim Buckley’s son. He is currently making his first album, and if it’s anything like a radio session I heard by him, it should be amazing. He’s written this song called ‘Grace’, which literally makes the hair on my neck stand on end. I was sweating like a fucking June bride when I first heard him. Music has never done that to me before.

https://cocteautwins.com/press-and-news/1993/11/01/elizabeth-fraser-vocal-her-nina-simone-melody-maker

1994

Mar 4

• In March 1994, when we were on tour in the US promoting our new album Four-Calendar Cafe, Jeff came to see us play at Roxy in Atlanta. He invited us to come and see him play at the night set at Omage, a bar that was close by, so Elizabeth and I decided we would go . . . While she never spoke to me in any detail about her feelings, I knew that Elizabeth had cared deeply for Jeff as interviews with her since will testify. I can’t say for sure if this tragedy directly influenced her decision, but Elizabeth called me some time after and said that she couldn’t continue with the band any longer.

Excerpts about Jeff from Simon Raymonde's book https://reddit.com/gallery/1jjxrml

Mar 4 1994 Cocteau Twins at The Roxy, Atlanta, GA, USA
Four-Calendar Café Tour

94-03-04 	Omage Atlanta, Georgia, America 	Unverified

May 2

• Talking of orgasms, did you and Liz Cocteau Twin ‘do’ it? Everyone thought you were an ‘item’ some months back. “Oh no. Oh no,” Jeff looks shocked. “We were just friends–very, very close friends. She’s such a good person, so sweet. Fucking her would be like fucking a sister–no, Liz and I were never bed buddies. That was all lies. “I am fucking Courtney, though,” he adds. “All those rumors are true, obviously.” Jeff is lying so much, his pants are on fire.

https://jeffbuckley.com/articles-and-interviews/orgasm-addict-by-caitlin-moran

May 29

• I was in the room when they met. It was at the Cocteau Twins' aftershow at the Royal Festival Hall in London. The Cocteau's manager Raymond Coffer introduced them to each other, right in front of me. They were both so animated to meet each other, both grinning like school kids. — @ElectricLabel

It is claimed that Fraser spoke about her relationship with Buckley on Cocteau Twins 1995 EP Twinlights. In a 1996 interview with Alternative Press, she teased this notion and revealed that when she went on tour with Cocteau Twins in 1994, in support of their album Four-Calendar Café, she fell in love with a man. She wouldn’t name him, and this had led fans to believe him be Buckley. She admitted: “My love addiction was worse than ever. I was maniacal.” https://www.setlist.fm/setlist/cocteau-twins/1994/royal-festival-hall-london-england-3bd2e8a8.html

August 19

• Jeff flew to London by himself, where he spent time with one of his musical heroes, the Cocteau Twins’ Elizabeth Fraser. In addition to carrying on a brief relationship, the two wrote and recorded an impassioned paean to romantic connection, “All Flowers in Time,” at a London studio. The band reconvened in Dublin in late August and began a month-long European tour. (David Browne)

• Jeff flew into London by himself in advance of the band and went to visit Liz Fraser again. It was during this visit, I think, that they went into the Cocteau Twins’ studio in Richmond and recorded a song they’d written together. (Dave Lory)

94-08-16	Wetlands
New York, New York, America	
94-08-22	'Mark Radcliff Show', Oxford Rd Studios, BBC
Manchester, England

September 22

• Q: Is it true that you are romantically involved with Elizabeth Fraser of the Cocteau Twins at the moment? A: No, but she's great. Her and Simon are the two of the most decent people I have ever met.

Jeff Buckley | ROCKRUSH (M6) Interview | Paris, France | 9/22/1994 https://youtu.be/UMxucWy41Rc?t=1043

Jeff Buckley performing The Way Young Lovers Do (Van Morrison), Kick Out The Jams (MC5), and reciting a poem of his called, New Years Eve Prayer. Recorded at Sin-é, in New York City, on 31 December 1994. /sin-e/ny-eve-poem

1995

January 13

• Then Samantha saw Jeff, in his winter coat, with a flower in his lapel and carrying his ghetto blaster, looking like Paddington Bear, a lost creature from the other side of the world. “We got to our hotel and I said, ‘Do you want to eat, have a drink, or whatever?’” recalls Sam. “He said, ‘I’d really like to go and see a friend.’ I said, ‘Don’t do this to me. I’m supposed to keep you here.’ He said, ‘I’m not going to do anything outrageous. I just want to hang with a friend for the evening.’ He wanted to see Liz Fraser in Twickenham.

• Just before this trip, he had been to England for a week over the new year, to visit Elizabeth Fraser, the singer with Cocteau Twins, whose voice, he told me, stopped him in his tracks. “It sounds like light,” he said. They’d met briefly a couple of times and had been talking on the phone since just before we first met. He’d gone to stay with her in Twickenham.

95-01-12	Columbia Records Radio Hour
New York, New York, America	
95-01-14	Tivoli
Dublin, Ireland	
95-01-15	Fleece and Firkin
Bristol, England	
95-01-16	Robert Elms Show, Greater London Radio
London, England	
95-01-16	?
London, England	
95-01-17	?
London, England	
95-01-18	The Astoria II
London, England

June 18

• Michael Tighe: That was Iceblink Luck from the Cocteau Twins from HoLV
• JB: And I'm glad that I get to play that one...I get to...we get to play a few others I brought in uh... Melvins (...) blah blah blah. By the way! I'm Jeff Buckley

MTV 120 Minutes June 18, 1995 [Guest Hosts – Jeff Buckley & Michael Tighe] 1080p https://youtu.be/WcqVvkDSRj8?t=551

September

• “My love addiction was worse than ever. I was maniacal. Twinlights is about that man. My ‘last goodbye,’ as it were. I was too needy and he was too much of an avoidance person. Naturally.” (Twinlight EP)

1996

March

• “A friend was kind of comforting me on the phone and they were just being so sweet, really. They had empathy for what I was going through, and they said, ‘I wish I could get the poison out of you. I wish I could just take it out of you and replace it with milk and kisses.’”

milk and kisses for the first man my old man love and a thousandfold rose for Buckley my Rilkean Hearted friend

(Milk & Kisses liner note dedication to Jeff)

1997

May

• The news that Buckley had disappeared – he drowned, swimming in the Wolf river in Memphis – came while Fraser was recording Teardrop with Massive Attack. “That was so weird,” she says. “I'd got letters out and I was thinking about him. That song's kind of about him – that's how it feels to me anyway.” https://www.theguardian.com/music/2009/nov/26/cocteau-twins-elizabeth-fraser-interview

I have no desire to make contact with all the thought of “no, no”. I shiver now, to think of how this answer asked her, no. Long time gone. I run to my hide out. (Thousand Fold)

Known Performance

97-05-?? Sketches For My Sweetheart The Drunk Demos, Memphis, Tennessee, America

http://flowersintime.org/show.php?songid=155

I don’t know what happened there, but I knew later that they were lovers and saw that he went misty-eyed when he spoke about her. They’d been introduced when Cocteau Twins toured the US in 1991. In 1983, Liz and her fellow Cocteau Twin and partner, Robin Guthrie, had cut a cover of his dad’s beautiful, desolate “Song To The Siren” with This Mortal Coil, a version so arresting that Jeff would have no choice but to be attracted to it. She in turn had gone to check Jeff out, and remarked later that she had “sweated like a June bride” when she first heard him sing. She had separated from Guthrie by this time and was having an unhappy time in the band. “To meet Jeffrey was like being given a set of paints,” she said in a TV documentary. “I had all this color in my life again. I couldn’t help falling in love with him; he was adorable.” She noted that he had idolized her and she had fallen for the son of someone whose music she loved, and it felt a bit creepy. But they couldn’t help themselves. She also remarked that they had read each other’s diaries. I wonder now if he was writing about her then on that long drive.

“I just wish I'd been more of a friend,” she says, softly. “His career was everything to him, and I wish I had been more understanding – happy with a different kind of relationship. I missed out on something there, and it was my fault.”

Reference 1. Dream Brother: The Lives and Music of Jeff and Tim Buckley 2. Jeff Buckley: From Hallelujah to the Last Goodbye

🌻 “All Flowers” Terminology /budd/sweet-willow 🌻 “All Flowers” Timeline /budd/all-flowers-in-time 🌻 “All Flowers” Diary: /budd/sea-in-love-with-moon 🌻 “All Flowers” Diary: /sin-e/morning-theft

解鎖成就

• 斥巨資委托了兩首歌的Piano Transcription /scll-inc /niflheimr
• 給Air換上256GB SSD和繼續使用macOS 10.11（⋯需要勇氣
• 路過一個站叫「飛機燃料庫」
• 參與了兩場演出，曲目包括布魯克納和肖斯塔科維奇
• 線上soldout以後在Infree買到了一千零一張實體門票
• 拿了\晴天殺必死/和CQ簽名
• 拜訪了即將結業的拉吧
• 給Owncast綁上了子域名（終於

每個月都要去一下的那個（指現場）https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLR8m3GeroImvZfVjScBb7kwxqzCaM568P

🍹The Cloakroom朝聖

年度最佳

アニメ：少女革命🌹

截圖：https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/112823973814908607

劇透repo

前面一直沒有明說具體是向什麼發動革命，但是Utena經歷完無處不在的「你要更像個女孩子」、「女孩子不適合拿劍」的非議質疑甚至是誘惑後，結局依然能夠喊出我要當王子（拯救姬宮）的一刻，Dios雕像隨話音落下而粉碎，原有的世界亦隨之崩塌；正式取代了記憶中被過度美化的「王子」（原本能夠借Dios的力量開掛也僅僅是因為之前還抱有信念） 這份強烈滿足感怕是近期都很難再別處找到

都被戳穿了還硬要說「小朋友不會理解這個房間的意義」，誘拐的時候倒沒見過你有把對方是未成年當一回事（）還有說其他受害者是「自願的」真是看得人生理不適的典型實例。。（很還原的意思…）

黑薔薇篇神中神……佈局精致而且是最直觀感受到作者下好大一盤棋的時刻；通往崇高和淨化的樓梯是道阻且長，但墮落是失控向下墜的升降機只需要一個契機就能瞬間完成。小結那集更是將藝術性體現得淋漓盡致

一直重覆但是不斷往更裡面挖出深層意義的手法很有古典氣息

少革的這種偉大是拿著看似很簡單的東西但做到極致

雖然說人格和姬宮二合一的說法也講得通，但我更傾向最後「不說明下落但沒有消失」，其實是鼓勵屏幕前的觀眾去成為下一個Utena（重生）

值得一提：絕愛-1989- 和 天使禁獵區 https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/112252010914804914

乙遊：麻取姬=スタマイ https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/112196313051045976

🔒漫畫 （韓）https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/111743826044998141 （日）https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/111868039669777156

電影：Trainspotting💉

https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/113034511518753043

線上現場及專輯：The Cure🪨

https://tale.violaine.xyz/budd/the-cure

話劇：Til the Stars Come Down

推車（歡迎自取！

• CQ兩張重制 https://violaine.xyz/s/smfS4H9XXkRgzT6
• Home Wreckordings https://violaine.xyz/s/tPwHJetZFXKfFWZ
• So Real精選集 https://violaine.xyz/s/6GJjsEgQj8nMDJx
• This Is Where We Rise https://chat.violaine.xyz/s/NoG2KaN6FnYGYWf
• BUDDHISTSON https://chat.violaine.xyz/s/wXm9qPLWry6ZaWQ

回南天之銀翼殺手2024

碎片星辰

《名言警句》

美食地圖

精品區

Jeff Buckley生賀1117

https://pinkorange.red/@halfnhalf/113493462329363410

1979

Three Imaginary Boys

1980

Seventeen Seconds

1981

Faith

1982

Pornography

1984

The Top

1985

The Head on the Door

1987

Kiss Me, Kiss Me, Kiss Me

1989

Disintegration

1992

Wish

1996

Wild Mood Swings

2000

Bloodflowers

2004

The Cure

2008

4:13 Dream

2024

Songs of a Lost World

During the writing process, Smith had difficulty “find[ing] the right imagery” for the lyrics to “Alone”, ultimately finding inspiration from the Ernest Dowson poem “Dregs”.

Dregs

By Ernest Dowson

The fire is out, and spent the warmth thereof, (This is the end of every song man sings!) The golden wine is drunk, the dregs remain, Bitter as wormwood and as salt as pain; And health and hope have gone the way of love Into the drear oblivion of lost things. Ghosts go along with us until the end; This was a mistress, this, perhaps, a friend. With pale, indifferent eyes, we sit and wait For the dropped curtain and the closing gate: This is the end of all the songs man sings.

💿 Songs Of A Lost World

Something Wicked This Way Comes

1962 dark fantasy novel by Ray Bradbury

“Death doesn't exist. It never did, it never will. But we've drawn so many pictures of it, so many years, trying to pin it down, comprehend it, we've got to thinking of it as an entity, strangely alive and greedy. All it is, however, is a stopped watch, a loss, an end, a darkness. Nothing.”

♫ Disintegration

“I fucking hate Royalty. Any kind of hereditary privilege is just wrong. It’s not just anti-democracy, it’s just inherently wrong. What upsets me is that some people who I’ve actually admired down the years get offered a reward by the Royal Family, by the hereditary monarchy, and they take it. They become Lord or Sir.

“I would honestly cut off my own hands before I [accepted an honour]. Because how dare they presume that they could give me an honour. I’m much better than them. They’ve never done anything, they’re fucking idiots. I should be King.”

https://www.reddit.com/r/TheCure/comments/13amrhg/robert_smith_of_the_cure_rejects_royalty_and

Siouxsie Sioux and Robert Smith (1984)

The Cure Live – 1989-06-04 Palazzo dello Sport, Rome, Italy

A good recording (although not as bassy as I would prefer) in front of a very passionate Italian crowd, almost every song off Disintegration features amidst two and a half hours a music. The crown of this show, though, is the closer – Robert dedicates it to “everyone who died in China today”, referencing the Tiananmen Square massacre that had happened just hours prior, and so unleashes a long, passionate, and moving version of 'Faith'.

And so we watch the sun come up From the edge of the deep green sea And she listens like her head's on fire Like she wants to believe in me

One more day like today and I'll kill you A desire for flesh and real blood And I'll watch you drown in the shower Push my life through your open eyes

And I'm starting to laugh Like an animal in pain I say I'm loving you to death Like I'm losing my breath

It makes me bite my fingers through To think I could've let you go It makes me pull my hair all out To think I could've let you leave

The Cure – In Orange (1986 concert, laserdisc) https://archive.org/details/cure-in-orange-60fps-from-ld

The Cure「Show」1992 Wish tour https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6STIJGOIE0

The Cure Trilogy (Live In The Tempodrom Arena, Berlin, 2002) https://archive.org/details/the-cure-trilogy-live-in-the-tempodrom-arena-berlin-2002

The Cure – 40 Live: Curætion 25 – Anniversary https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1Ja411L75Y

The Cure – Live In Hyde Park London July 7th 2018 https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV18F411V7TB

Stream: /melonella/bob-bday-stream

IV-XXI-MMXXV: /sweet-haze/hbd-robert-smith

Goods: /goods/cure-phone-case-and-sticker

“I’d love to sing with Jeff Buckley … He is currently making his first album, and if it’s anything like a radio session I heard by him, it should be amazing. He’s written this song called ‘Grace’, which literally makes the hair on my neck stand on end. I was sweating like a fucking June bride when I first heard him. Music has never done that to me before.” https://jeffbuckley.com/quotes

Elizabeth Fraser on Jeff Buckley: https://youtu.be/X7G90ZylP6g

Teardrop (1997 song)

While recording the song in 1997, she found out that Jeff Buckley, with whom she had formerly been involved in a relationship, had disappeared—later discovered to have drowned. In 2009, she said, “That was so weird ... I'd got letters out and I was thinking about him. That song's kind of about him—that's how it feels to me anyway” https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Teardrop_(song)

All Flowers in Time Bend Towards the Sun (1994 duet)

After parting from Guthrie, but still in the same band, Fraser struck up an intense relationship with Jeff Buckley after they became infatuated with each other's voices. Again, emotion produced music. A sublime duet they recorded called All Flowers in Time Bend Towards the Sun is floating around the internet, to her irritation.

“Why do people have to hear everything?” she complains. I tell her it's wonderful. “But it's unfinished, you see. I don't want it to be heard.” There's a pause. “Maybe I won't always think that.”

Buckley died in 1997, by which time they had lost touch – Fraser had grown frustrated with his constant touring, a reaction that weighs heavily on her. “I just wish I'd been more of a friend,” she says, softly. “His career was everything to him, and I wish I had been more understanding – happy with a different kind of relationship. I missed out on something there, and it was my fault.” https://www.theguardian.com/music/2009/nov/26/cocteau-twins-elizabeth-fraser-interview

Milk & Kisses (1996 Album)

“A friend was kind of comforting me on the phone and they were just being so sweet, really. They had empathy for what I was going through, and they said, ‘I wish I could get the poison out of you. I wish I could just take it out of you and replace it with milk and kisses.’ And I just thought that was really brilliant! It’s beautiful, isn’t it? I kept hearing it and feeling so good about it, it seemed right to use it.” https://cocteautwins.com/milk-and-kisses.html

Twinlights (1995 EP)

“My love addiction was worse than ever. I was maniacal. Twinlights is about that man. My ‘last goodbye,’ as it were. I was too needy and he was too much of an avoidance person. Naturally.” https://cocteautwins.com/twinlights.html

Rilkean Heart and Half-Gifts (Liz)

Rilkean Heart was based on her connection with Jeff Buckley who, along with herself, was a fan of he poet Rilke. ...present in ‘Rilkean Heart’ and the deeply moving ‘Half-Gifts.’ The intense sadness of these songs may not be entirely unrelated to her rumoured break-up with a young Cocteau Twins fan called Jeff Buckley. https://cocteautwins.com/1996-milk-and-kisses-mojo-magazine.html

Morning Theft (Jeff)

“Morning Theft” is generally understood to be a song for Elizabeth Fraser, lead singer of The Cocteau Twins, with whom Buckley shared an intense but doomed romantic relationship. It may contain references to other romances as well; the lyrics alone do not tell a specific story. But together with the instrumentation and tender vocals, a haunting sense of affection, longing and regret is created. https://genius.com/Jeff-buckley-morning-theft-lyrics

“Widely thought to be about Liz Fraser of the Cocteau Twins, this wistful, tender love song about “unexamined failure” inhabits the lower registers of Jeff's voice. Despairing (“gifts for boot heels to crush, promises deceived”) and hopeful (“we come together making chance in the starlight”), the melody moves in slow circles around an almost Elizabethan structure, a kind of deranged minuet which finally settles into resolution and peace. This lovely solo performance, given to a small New York crowd just before Jeff moved to Memphis, is both wilder and warmer than the studio version included on Sketches for My Sweetheart the Drunk.” — Web Article, Clare O'Brien http://flowersintime.org/show.php?songid=102

Vancouver (Jeff)

The lyrics were supposedly written in London in August 1994 (hence the line 'Now, smell the rain of London...'), and potentially inspired by Liz Fraser. The name probably comes from the fact that the music was composed during some studio time the band took in Vancouver, November 1994. http://flowersintime.org/show.php?songid=161

Lady, all the troubles are my fright, I disgust you

I need to be alone to heal this bleeding stone Now, smell the rain of london, it still insists

I am your failed husband contender I'm your loan shark of bliss (Vancouver)

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But what am I still to you Some thief who stole from you? Or, some fool drama queen Whose chances were few?

You're a woman, I'm a calf You're a window, I'm a knife We come together Making chance in the starlight

You know the meaning fits There's no relief in this I miss my beautiful friend (Morning Theft)

- I know you are a woman by the way you burn below Like thieves, my bad luck grows / ... like emeralds I stole (Jewel Box)

- Just like the ocean, always in love with the moon It's overflowing now, inside you

I am a railroad track abandoned With the sunset forgetting I ever happened That I ever happened (Opened Once)

- I have no desire to make contact with all the thought of “no, no”. I shiver now, to think of how this answer asked her, no. Long time gone. I run to my hide out.

There ain't a star born that brightens More than you, you always should have known, I'll illuminate your question, Long time ago I'd died and gone. (Thousand Fold)

milk and kisses for the first man

my old man

love and a thousandfold rose for Buckley

my Rilkean Hearted friend

Internet Archive – Milk & Kisses (Booklet p.8)

Rilkean heart I looked for you To give me transcendent experiences I became a junkie for it I came looking for the next high And I'm sorry (Rilkean Heart)

- Well I'm still a junkie for it It takes me out of my aloneness But this relationship cannot sustain itself (Half-Gifts)

- Is it like a dream? / Or does it seem grounded and real?

I feel a connection / A deep connection But it’s not reflected / In time spent together (Tishbite)

- You are a woman just as you are a man (Seekers Who Are Lovers)

- What woman can sing Without loving the primitive heart Midnight he'll sing blue Cuz he's silly (Primitive Heart)

- Long-term scares us when we're down I really need to know if you are in love (Smile)

- Little flowers in the dirt And gladness will fill me in your hand You hold and surround me in gold (Golden-Vein)

- Sing, and touch me With sad lust and revealing dreams

Cover me in Sublime light Come back now, put sunlight on The sunlight will touch me sublime me and I'll... come back to you (Flock of Soul)

⭐ Oh, you left some stars in my belly (Jewel Box) Stars in my eyes / Stars at my feet / Womb in the belly (Shallow Then Halo)

🌊 Wait at sea for waves of light Always stars see what, once you're free, He hopes will be the very last time (Orange Appled)

Stay with me under these waves, tonight / Be free for once in your life, tonight (Nightmares by the Sea)

☁️ Purified love / Constancy purifies mistakes (Treasure Hiding) That we beg for our purity / As if we are pure in the reign of our contentment (Vancouver)

🎁 Shame casts her face / I will be just what I am (Summerhead) Feel no shame for what you are (New Year's Prayer)

Steal more treasures, steal more gifts (Summerhead) The gift is shining through the troubled dark (New Year's Prayer – draft)

Jeff interpolating Ivo by Cocteau Twins, 1993 & 1995 https://www.reddit.com/r/JeffBuckley/comments/1aws8qh/two_instances_of_jeff_interpolating_ivo_by

https://jeffbuckley.com/personal-stuff

Jeff Buckley – Vancouver | MTV's Most Wanted (London, England) 3/3/1995 https://youtu.be/kfqa-PvVy5w

Flower Telecaster https://sweetdreamsjeff.tumblr.com/post/141489027240/flower-telecaster

Lyrics reference: https://lyrics.cocteautwins.com https://cocteautwins.com/cocteau-twins-lyrics.html https://www.liquidgnome.com/JeffBuckley/lyrics.html

🌻 “All Flowers” Terminology /budd/sweet-willow 🌻 “All Flowers” Timeline /budd/all-flowers-in-time 🌻 “All Flowers” Diary: /budd/sea-in-love-with-moon 🌻 “All Flowers” Diary: /sin-e/morning-theft

Chopin: Nocturne Op.55 No.2 in E-flat Major (Pogorelich)

“Chopin's most richly contrapuntal nocturne, played with some truly daring (but nevertheless persuasive) tempo fluctuations and surprising intimacy by Ivo Pogorelich.” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTvfpwAGMHs

Arrau plays Liszt 'Les jeux d'eaux à la Villa d'Este' (rec.1969)

“This borders on impressionism. A number of Liszt's later works drifted towards a more interpretive style breaking from the Romantic mould to foreshadow the style of composers such as Debussy, Poulenc, and Ravel.” – @kyotokid4 “The music is not a musical depiction of the fountains there, but rather a reflection on the biblical verse “he who drinks of these waters shall have eternal life” that the fountains inspired.” – @edwardbak4459 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWN18ZoqzGs

Bach/Liszt – Prelude & Fugue in A Minor, BWV 543 ; Marta Czech

“The ending . . . sounds like the end of the world, it's terrifying!” – [r/bach] “The prelude is a massive, dramatic thing with a weighty, chromatically descending subject, made all the weightier when it is thrust into the pedals midway through the piece. A master organist can shape this into one of the most compelling of all Bach's fugue introductions. At the end of the fugue itself there is an electrifying passage of freewheeling, utterly unfugal organ virtuosity.” – Blair Johnston https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAY2jfZqU8M

Beethoven: Sonata No.31 in A-flat Major (Ashkenazy)

“In none of the other 31 piano sonatas does Beethoven cover as much emotional territory: it goes from the absolute depths of despair to utter euphoria ... it is unbelievably compact given its emotional richness, and its philosophical opening idea acts as the work’s thesis statement, permeating the work, and reaching its apotheosis in its final moments.” – Jonathan Biss https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0eqDzMxQjx0

Honourable Mention🎖️

J.S.Bach BWV 1031 Siciliano by YunchanLim at Verbier https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1x2eke3Ecy

1. Jiyeong Mun | J. S. Bach – Chromatic Fantasy & Fugue, BWV903 🎹
2. Ilva Eigus | Ysaÿe - Sonata for Violin Solo Op.27 No.4 "Fritz Kreisler" 🎻
3. Anastasia Rizikov | Prokofiev - Sonata No. 2 in D minor, Op. 14 🎹
4. Marta Czech | J. S. Bach - Kunst der Fuge , BWV 1080 🎹
5. Chloe Chua | Ysaÿe - Sonata in D minor, Ballade, Op. 27, No. 3 🎻
6. Clara Haskil | J. S. Bach - Bach Toccata in E minor, BWV 914 🎹
7. Sayaka Shoji with the Israel Philharmonic Orchestra / Sibelius Violin Concerto 🎻
8. Hilary Hahn | J.S. Bach - Sonata for Violin Solo No. 2 in A Minor, BWV 1003 - II. Fuga 🎻
9. Nikol Bóková | César Franck – Prélude, Choral et Fugue 🎹
10. Polina Churbanova | Dmitri Shostakovich - Prelude and Fugue No. 24 in D minor 🎹

피아니스트 문지영 🎹 J. S. Bach – Chromatic Fantasy & Fugue, BWV903

Chloe Jiyeong Mun is a South Korean classical pianist. She drew international attention when she won the Geneva International Competition in Switzerland in 2014 and then the Busoni International Competition in 2015 consecutively. Jörg Demus, the president of the 60th International Busoni Competition jury praised that, “I have rediscovered in her a naturalness of musicality that I thought had disappeared.”   https://youtu.be/2zzdYvRkenE?si=JIV7hRjDDcv6DaB0

Ilva Eigus 🎻 Ysaÿe Sonata for Violin Solo Op.27 No.4 “Fritz Kreisler”

Recognized for her outstanding talent in chamber music, Swiss musician Ilva Eigus has won the hearts of classical music lovers. Fans are taken to a world of melodic wonder with Eigus's performances because of his superb technique and poignant touch. Eigus is a specialist in her profession with extensive knowledge of the subtleties and complexities of classical music. Her skill on the violin and her ability to emote with every note make for an engrossing listening experience. Eigus's talent is evident whether she performs alone or with an ensemble, enthralling audiences with her nuanced phrasing and emotive interpretations. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHPqJNUOxHs

Anastasia Rizikov 🎹 Prokofiev- Sonata No. 2 in D minor, Op. 14

“FIERY, SPONTANEOUS, BRILLIANT...” ...concert goers typically use these adjectives to describe Canadian 22 year-old phenomena Anastasia Rizikov. Her unpredictable, passionate playing has awed concertgoers worldwide, some musicians even comparing her to the great Martha Argerich. With numerous competition triumphs under her belt, Rizikov's impressive reputation has taken her to some of the most prestigious concert halls and festivals, and has earned her appearances with the world's most renowned orchestras. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2M_nIUr_xM

Marta Czech 🎹 J. S. Bach – Kunst der Fuge, BWV 1080

Marta Czech is a Polish classical pianist, born on November 25, 1998 in Wodzisław Śląski. She is a winner of 49 IJMC in Belgrade. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1Sq1HOYglU&t=1640s

Chloe Chua 🎻 Ysaÿe : Sonata in D minor, Ballade, Op. 27, No. 3

Chloe Chua is a Singaporean violinist. She is the first prize winner in the Junior division of the 2018 Yehudi Menuhin International Competition for Young Violinists alongside Christian Li, and also the winner of the 24th Andrea Postacchini International Violin Competition in Category A. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-klnOLb_VBQ

Clara Haskil 🎹 Bach Toccata in E minor BWV 914

Clara Haskil was a Romanian classical pianist, renowned as an interpreter of the classical and early romantic repertoire. She was particularly noted for her performances and recordings of Mozart. She was also a noted interpreter of Beethoven, Schumann, and Scarlatti. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNx-jc6B8mo

Sayaka Shoji with the Israel Philharmonic Orchestra 🎻 Sibelius Violin Concerto

“Shoji isn’t merely a superb technician, she’s a deeply engaging performer” (Gramophone Magazine). Sayaka Shoji has become internationally recognised for her unique artistic versatility and detailed approach to her chosen repertoire. Her remarkable insight into musical languages comes from her mix of European and Japanese backgrounds. Born in Tokyo, Shoji moved to Siena, Italy when she was three. She studied at Accademia Musicale Chigiana and Cologne’s Musikhochschule and made her European debut with Lucerne Festival Strings and Rudolf Baumgartner at the Lucerne Festival and then at the Musikverein, Vienna at the age of fourteen. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d388O4WxOD4

Hilary Hahn 🎻 J.S. Bach: Sonata for Violin Solo No. 2 in A Minor, BWV 1003 – 2. Fuga

For all the appreciable virtues offered by recent contenders in the Bach Sonatas and Partitas field, I cannot think of a single performer who begins to compare with Hilary Hahn. This is quite simply magnificent violin-playing, the sort that while you’re listening to it convinces you that the music couldn’t possibly be played any other way. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dbYO_9RYBvc

Nikol Bóková 🎹 César Franck – Prélude, Choral et Fugue

Nikol Bóková is a musician dedicated to many genres of music. She particularly works as a performer of classical music. Her repertoire ranges from Baroque to contemporary music but the 19th and 20th Century periods are a primary focus. At the same time, she is an extraordinary author of her own, unique music. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fjSv8_5NJc0

Polina Churbanova 🎹 Prelude and Fugue No. 24 in D minor – Dmitri Shostakovich

The piano duo of Anastasia and Polina Churbanova was founded at the beginning of their musical careers, when the twin sisters began their first piano lessons at the age of six in their hometown of St. Petersburg. Since childhood, the twins have been intensively involved in composition and improvisation. At the age of six, they wrote their first joint composition, inspired by J. R. R. Tolkien's children's book “The Hobbit”. At the age of seven, they took part in their first international piano duo competition “Brother and Sister” (St. Petersburg). In 2003, the duo won first prize at the international piano competition “Miniature in Russian music” (St. Petersburg). https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NWr1eWTe5o