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Speeches Discourses Whatever you'd like to call Are much less liberating than they sound (aren't they all)
Replace with synonyms to avoid repetition Comprehensive paragraphs and meaningful diction Always searching for the right expression Checking the format of each citation Preoccupied with a wrong pronunciation
And yes I have attended that kind of training By and large very draining Only thing I recall was the struggle remaining
...As if the lack of rhyme is an unforgivable crime
Even my questions are voiced out I am still in doubt Or is it insecurity? Possibly — But more precisely — Draft and rewrite until your inner monologues start with “we” Repeating ourselves for eternity
Took a long long way to finally get somewhere — or Anywhere (And I have been intrigued, confused, humiliated, and terrified to this day) In hope that I would never expose my disguise The fake persona and dramatic tone I wish to hide That anyone familiar with the public examination would immediately recognize Ever since have I been mortified
Am I too self-aware or insensitive? Should I pretend to exist in a different continuum? Can I finally get the shame out of my system?
Go back in time and back to the future As I approach my own midlife crisis Or should I say — Wait until you reach the age of Prufrock Those are poetry, words of honesty, instead of bollocks
Must I swallow it all and praise the aftertaste boiling in my throat